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Sunday, August 20th, 2006
3:26 pm	Hey Mom, Hey Ron You want to accuse me of writing shit in my Myspace when it was written in the fucking Livejournal, go suck a fucking dick. You want to tell ERIC to talk some sence into me about getting an abortion? FUCK OFF!! I'm 3 months in for fucks sake!!!!!!! Are you fucking retarded?! 3 months in if I get a fucking abortion, I could fuck myself up to the point that I won't EVER be able to have kids. Think about that for a second. I'm already mentally fucked up through the bullshit that you, MOM, put me through with being married to FRANK and then to Ron. Yeah, sure, He's been there for me for the past 11 years, sure, he's been more of a father to me then Donald has, but you know what, you never gave him a chance to be a father! It was never his choice to stop seeing us. He's always had half custody of us, and he could of, at any time, come to get us but you never let us go anywhere. You blamed almost everything in my childhood that went wrong on me because it was never your fault. Thanks for putting me and Eric on Rhydlin, by the way, that REALLY made my self-confidence sky rocket!! To the point that I'd come home and fucking slit my legs, all because I wasn't good enough for you, I never have been. Everything I do is wrong in your eyes and everything is always my fault, not anyone else's. Me being raised the way that I was wasn't helpful. You wonder where you went wrong? This is where I'm with Eric. You were never home, you never cared and you hated being around us. We were the worst thing that happened to you, weren't we? We were just such horrible kids that you have to turn around at every bend and blame everything that's wrong in YOUR life on us.... And the classic "I always wanted a girl but looking at you, Jen, I don't know why I did....." Yeah... like THAT'S not gonna fuck a kid up. GOOD THINKING You fucking pot-head. See there's a difference between you and me, Mom. I'm not a complete and utter bitch. I can be, but I'm not. My attitude? It came from you, and grandma. It came from watching you fight with grandma, watching you fight with frank, and watching you fight with Ron and then blame it on my because it was all my fault, wasn't it? Isn't that what you always loved to say? "Ron and me are fighting because of something you said to him." Well too bad. You're fighting because of your own accord because instead of being adults, and talking it out, mom, you always loved screaming instead of talking, you never listen. It was always easier talking to grandmother then it was talking to you... but you know what, I can't talk to any of you now.... I get looked at like I'm some sort of Alien... You keep pressing Abortion and Adoption. You want to keep pressing me with stress? Good, that's fucking fantastic, so when I get complications anywhere along the line, I can blame it on you, right? Like you blame everything on me? If you aren't going to be around to support me, then don't be in my life, that's all I can say. I don't need the stress. You want this to be my happy ending, mom? Stop pissing Chris and me off, it's not helping.... For someone that wants this to be my "happy ending" you sure as hell or balls-to-the-wall on trying to split me up with everyone I'm with. You don't want to help me out? You don't want to be there for me through this? Then give me ALL of my fucking bonds, and get out of my life... I don't need this bullshit in my life. I didn't need this when I was a kid, and I don't need this as a "young adult." You're not helping with anything, you're making it worse. Can't you just stop? Back off. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: 3 Doors Down -- When I'm Gone (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 17th, 2006
10:42 am	grrrr A whiole lot of things have happened in the last few weeks or within the last month or so that I posted.... First of all I'm not in a good mood, I woke up, looked at the time, and said "fuck that shit I'm going back to bed, it's only 10 and I didn't go to sleep till late in the morning hours....." so I layed back down to go to sleep, and my friend sat on me and tickled me then punched my leg, so I'm not really fuckin happy right now. Getting punched for nothing... not cool.... ANYWAYS I found out that my grandfather is going to be dead by this time next year.... it's very upsetting concidering he is still family, but I haven't seen this guy in 4 years. I don't know why. It is kinda weird that after I turned 18 the people in my family finally start talking to me.... I dunno..... I haven't heard anything from Dan or josh, so I guess they're completly done with me for no reason... alright fine.... *shrugs* I'll just let them be that way.... I didn't do anything wrong to either of them and I get picked up and thrown to the side like sunday's garbage... I'm still looking for a job..... it's anoying that no one wants to hire anyone.... I'm still with Chris...... Steph is with Goose.... My mom is with my step dad (LOL... just random) yeah...... Current Mood: blank Current Music: Blue October - Hate Me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
1:23 pm	Load of shit. Alright so I went to the mall three days ago.... normal day, it was going pretty good. I dropped Goose off for work, Chris was at work, Steph and me got bored so we went to the mall. I got a nice new necklace ^-^.... Anyways... I was waiting for Goose to call for when he got out of work so we could go get him, and I get a phone call from my mother. APPARENTLY I'm one of 7 children now, not 6... I guess somewhere along the line my dad popped out another kid, so I have a little brother or sister out there somewhere. How did she find this out you say? WELL!!!!! I used to get social security from my father for his dissabilities... I got a whole wopping 7 checks (the ones that came straight to me when I turned 18. Mom took the rest of them for herself because I guess they were coming out of dad's backed-up child support... I'm not to sure about that) that all togethere was a good..... $1582 towards me.... WELL..... Social Security called.... I guess I owe the state $1015 because they overpaid me. They wanted the money back because there is another fucking kid collecting Social Security from this man. WOOPTIE FUCKIN DOOO!! He owes my mom how much money for child support still? I'm not giving teh money back that I DON'T HAVE! I'm 19 years old, I have a car to pay for, gas to buy for the car, and I'm in the process of looking for a fucking job, where the hell do you think I have this money? I'm not rich by any means. I'm not on dissability or anything like that so I have no income. I'm living in an appartment with my best friend, my boyfriend, and another friend. I'm not paying rent, which I feel extreamly sorry for, my boyfriend just got his job back, and I'm looking at exotic fin and feather, and Big Y (again.....) but I just don't get it, it's teir fuck up. And dad must know that this is his kid otherwise this bitch wouldn't be getting S.S. He had to go in and say that it was his child. Which urks me. Why didn't I know about this? Why wasn't I told!? It's bad enough that I don't see my older sister April, I havn't seen my older brother.... I've seen Jason, Taylor, and my brother Eric... And now I have a younger brother or sister, and I'd like to know them! Even if they aren't my full-blooded family... they're still half-siblings.... they're still in my family..... This kind of shit just upsets me... This kind of stuff makes me want to pull away from humanity all the more.... (these are the thoughts that kept me out of the really good schools....) Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Emotionaless--- Good Charlotte (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
11:31 pm	HEY JASON!!!!! You can post now ^-^ SO START POSTING COMMENTS DERN YOU!! :) much sisterly-love Mwah -Jen p.s. ribbit!! Current Mood: bouncy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
11:20 pm	basic drama SO!! I helped my brother move out today. He went to live with Jason in Hamden. I got to catch up with my sister-in-law which was great because we got to talking about alot of things. I saw my neice and Nephew which was even better. They're adorable ^-^. Samantha looks just like me when I was her age, and Mathew is a handful like all little boys are. I saw Patty today too, she's the lady that had my older and younger brother (of the three of us I'm right in the middle, 18, 19, and 20) and I got to talking to her which is great, the last time she saw me I was 2. We got to talking about my biological father today. Maybe I'll see him someday. I don't know. A lot of things were told to me today that my mother never really bothered to tell me, I guess she's just being a bitch as always with telling me and my brother half of the story. Though I do like what my sister in law said today. I think she has a great idea for everything. But it doesn't help that my sister April seems to want nothing to do with the entire family. Which would include me I guess. But I'm home now, which is boring and annoying as hell. I left Aoushi and Mufasa at Bull's appartment for tonight, I think I'll bring them home tomorrow. But I just got a new rug in my "room" (JAIL CELL) and my parents don't want them in there because they'll pee all over it, but they also don't want them in the room all my stuff is in right now because they'll piss all over that rug apparently. And my mom wants to cage them up everynight like she does the dogs. Well tough shit bitch. They're not getting penned up like some low-life k-9. Fuck that shit. I had to rip the carpet up in my old room and paint the walls. Well when you rip a carpet up, their is nails and shit all over the floor sticking out. Mom wanted me to keep the cats in there for the night. I DON'T THINK SO. They'd end up getting hurt. That's why they're at bull's right now, for the time being at least. I get a call from mom this morning telling me that I'd better be home or she's taking my car. News flash, THIS JUST IN: I don't give two shits about my fucking car! She thinks I don't have friends with cars. Well lah de freakin dah. She wants the car she can fucking have it. Then I get this bullshit. I've been given Savings Bonds all my life by my uncle. My mother won't let me touch them because they're in her name as well as mine. The only reason they're in her name was because I got them when I was a minor. I can easily get her name taken off of them!!!!! My grandmother just needs to tell me where the fuck my bonds are and the money is as good as mine. Mom doesn't want me moving out, but she doesn't want me here and she's trying to dictate everything in my life. Though she told me if I get a job (WHICH I'M FUCKING LOOKING FOR) she'll move the insurance, title and registration into my name. ABOUT THE FUCK TIME!! She was supposed to do it 6 months ago. But she wanted me home tonight and every night thereafter. Well good for her. I have Randy telling me that I could get a job with Data entry. Maybe then I can get the fuck out of this house if I have a good paying job. This isn't a home, it's a fucking prison with a warden that is trying to live her life through me. I wonder what would happen if I told dad she smokes and told her work. I was told previously that she'd get fired from ACS if she smoked and worked there. And Dad wouldn't be to happy with it either. I could fuck her over so badly right now. She's been giving me nothing but shit for the past year that I've been out of school, and yet I have "no reason to move out." I swear to god she's so back-ass-wards that she's lost it! She needs to wake up. I swear if shit goes down tonight I'm blowing the fuck up. I'm going to bed. I'm out of here in the morning. --blessed be ---Jen Current Mood: bored Current Music: Nothing (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
11:00 pm	daily shit never fucking stops Ok. So toda was wickedly fucked up!!! I posted in my myspace a month or so ago (march 2nd) ok, maybe not a month, but still, I got pulled over for speeding on the highway whilst trying to get away from another car that was trying to run my ass off of the highway with my boyfriend chris in the car, my friend mary and stephanie were also in the car. I'm going maybe 105 mph and this truck is staying with me even when I'm ducking through cars to try to get away this asshole is chasing me. I don't even know this asshole and he's trying to kill me and all the people I love. Well shit, this cop stops me at 99 mph and pulls me over, asks me if I know why he pulled me over. YES YOU ASSHOLE I KNOW WHY YOU PULLED ME OVER MY ONLY QUESTION IS WHY NOT PULL OVER THE WHITE TRUCK THAT IS TRYING TO KILL ME AND MY FUCKING FRIENDS?!?!? Well he gave me a court summons which got turned from wreckless driving into a speeding ticket (lucky for me anyways) well my mom found out about this whole thing the saturday before I had to go into court (being I had to go in monday) and I was trying to take care of it myself. Well she fucking blew up on me in my boyfriend's appartment. Lah de freakin Dah!!! Well I tried to get the money to pay it off myself and I couldn't do it. My dad ended up fronting the money for it (apparently he'd found my myspace blog, I don't know how, and read it weeks before mom found out). I go to the court today to pay it off when I didn't have the money for it yet, I wanted to see if I could do it in payments before I acutally asked anyone for help. Seems I couldn't and they wouldn't take a credit card over the phone Via my mom. So I am talking to this lady who is telling me what the charge was dropped to and steph busts into the court house yeling that they're toeing my car out of the space that I had parked in... well I booked out of the courthouse and did this jackie-chan fucking running dive-roll flip thing. I fell to my knees from tripping, dropped into a roll and got right the fuck back up on my feet and coninued to run towards the toe truck that had just dragged my car out of the parking spot whilst the E-break was on (FUCING IDIOT) my knees are all fucked up now because of it. This guy tells me I can't get anything out of the car that's mine Well fuck you too asshole!!! Now I go around with my brother, steph and chris the entire day to get money to get my car out of the pound and then I go to pay it ($77) just to find out that my mother had called themand paid them over the phone. They tell me that the keys are in the car and to go ahead and take it. So I did and I went, doing what I needed to do today thinking of nothing, not even about calling my mom and thanking her. Well at like 9:30 I get a phone call from my mother, she found the spare key that I have and had already drivin away with my car. WHAT THE FUCK!?! Well we get into a huge fucking argument where she's talking mad shit about me, chris, and steph and my brother, to me. Look bitch, if you have a beef with my friends and your son, BRING IT UP WITH THEM, NOT WITH ME!!! I'm fucking pissed off, she has my license in the car, my CDs, everything int hat car is mine and she basically stole everything, I could litterally have her arrested for stealing shit. well I'm not gonna do that. She told me she took the car because she wants to make sure that the court really did drop the charge to speeding instead of a wreckless driving charge. So I'm car-less for a while. Herre's the kicker, I have an oppointment at Full Sail tattoo tomorrow to get my rose tattoo fixed. She tell sme that I have to rely on my brother for a ride around now for a little while until she calls the toe-truck place and bitches them out because apparently they weren't supposed to give the car to me, they were supposed to hold it for her. And she's gonna call the fucking Court-house and ask them if it's true that it's just a speeding ticket when I have Steph, Chris and Eric (my brother) telling her that it was dropped. Well she wont' have it. She just wants to piss me off and she's never seen me bow up. Steph is the only person so far that's seen me explode on someone, and she didn't even see the surface of how pissed I can get. Even she says that it's a bad thing. My mom has no fucking clue what she's started but she's going to find out fast. I'm 19, I'm not taking shit from anyone anymore. Not even her!! Dan is the only person that's seen me fully (FULLY) explode on someone. It's NOT pretty. She's not gonna be very happy with what happens to the shit that's mine that she gave me, I have NICE rings that are going to be sold for money soon, except for one that I like and wear everyday because it's not HUGE. I need to get a job and get the fuck out of that god damn house. I'm just needing to find a place for all my shit. I want to get Aoushi and Mufasa out of there before my dad does something to them like put them outside. My little boys don't need this shit. She keeps telling me that I'm gonna amount to nothing, and how I'm just like my father. She's gonna see how much I'm like him when I break her fucking jaw. I can't get my car back because everything is in her name. I can live without a car, se can run it off a cliff if she wants to I could fucking care less right now. I need to get fucking drunk, I swear to god. I need to either get fucked extreamly hard tonight or get drunk. Well my boyfriend's sore from last night and I don't have any booze right now...... DAMNIT...... I'm pissed, so I'm done.... fuck those who deserve none of my love (MOM) To those who care, I love you all. -Blessed Be -Jennifer Current Mood: infuriated Current Music: Papa Roach ---- "Respect" (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
2:03 pm	Jason! Hey I finally changed the settings on my journal, so now you can post ^-^. POST AWAY!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
10:04 pm	Wow it's been a while A looooooooong while. I quit my job last thursday, and I'm currently looking into all animal-related type jobs. We had a showing on our house since we're moving, but I don't know how it went, my closet is clean and so are the clothes that I found on the floor in there... and trust me, it was A LOT of clothes.... Anyways... nothing new, no more new stuff from Damion, which is good, because I don't need that kinda stuff around right now. Dan's leaving for a while, and I mean a long while, I won't see him for a while, but I refuse to hold him back from something that he wants to do, and I understand completly why he needs to do this. Aoushi and Mufasa got bigger, now they're terrors... I found all my SIMS games, and installed them... I know, I'm a loser It snowed today, and my car was BURRIED... I mean... I couldn't see it.... It's a while blob hidden under a white blob.... looked like I owned a Lincoln.... I wish... Kate's coming down soon so we're gonna hang if I can, she'll be with her boy all the time. lol... Taht's basically it, ttyl! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
10:28 pm	this shit never stops? "hellisuponus666: so u know u cum guzzling gutter butt slut next time my girl heather who happens to be 22 is gonna beat the shit outta u the next time she sees u for the bullshit u pulled that day at planned parenthood" To thouse of you who don't know who the above is, That's Damion Patrick Perry. My girl stephanie's ex cock-sucker. Now I say this, what is mentioned in the above, happened 3 months ago. Does this tell you something? His ass can't fucking forget anything? Excuse me if Chicken Huntin was playing when we drove past your red-neck self.and "pussy" slipped out of my mouth directed towards you. The truth hurt much? You are a pussy, you're a crack-head fuckin cunt. You made stephanie's life shit and it's all so obvious now that we all laugh at you and hope you end up dead in a ditch somewhere, none of us want you around, and we're tired of hearing about how the boys saw you at cumbies or if you're in town. We want to get on with our lives WITHOUT you. Time to grow up kiddo, and to move on. We're done with you and vice-versa. You approach me anywhere int he streets, or your fucking girlfriend for that matter, and I WILL call the cops. I have no remorse about haveing both of you arrested for harassment and attempted assult. Let her lay a hand on me and I'll sue her fucking ass for the 3 cents she's fucking worth. Can't be worth much if she's with you. Dry up and die, get over it and move on. For once in your life. You're never going to be anything mroe than what you are right now, and that's scum. You don't try to become someone better, you don't try to be someone who can capture more in life, you're content to sit on your fuckin ass and attempt to sing and play music, but no one will sign you, if anyone does they're fuckin tone def. Maybe the people that hired william-hung will sign you! Good luck with that shit. ~Blessed be to those who deserve it ~~Steve, I'm glad to hear you're alive, missed you punk-ass call me! oh, damion and your new bitch, here's a song for ya Why don't you let me be Leave me alone You start a fire inside that i could never control You wanna see a reaction Come on and cut me doubt You've gone as far as i'll go Now you're crossing the line And i am letting you know Well here's your reaction Stand up I have had enough Walk away before i finish what you started Face to face i will push you in your place End this game before i finish what you started Face to face everything will change You planted the seed How my anger has grown Got an feeling inside that i can't seem to control You wanna see a reaction Come on and cut me doubt You've gone as far as i'll go Now you're crossing the line and i am letting you know Well here's your reaction Stand up I have had enough Walk away before i finish what you started Face to face i will push you in your place End this game before i finish what you started Face to face everything will change Insult After insult [9x] Stand up I have had enough Walk away before i finish what you started Face to face i will put you in your place End this game before i finish what you started Face to face everything will change Walk away Everthing will change End this game You wanna see a reaction You wanna see a reaction Stand up Current Mood: content Current Music: Trapt, Stand up (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
10:31 am	bad news so my computer won't turn on and I don't know why. It might be a little while before I can get it to work again, so I might not be around that much anymore(at least for a few weeks) which will give me time to set some things straight in my life I guess. Things happened a few days ago that I need to forget about, I have two tats now, not just one anymore, and I have money things to settle with one of my friends. I'm on my dad's laptop at this moment in time and it's pretty cool. I want one but noooooooooo I'm not in college anymore so I don't deserve one. Oh well. I'm watching ER with Stephanie and then we're gonna get dressed and head out. I'm bored as fuck.... I just hope my computer can be fixed..... dun dun dunnnnn... oh, and for those of you who don't know what my first tattoo was, it's a tribal blue rose. the second one I got yesterday, is a edragon :) both on opposite arms... heheheheh Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, January 2nd, 2006
10:37 pm	mwahahaha In the year 2006 I resolve to: Sell myself on ebay. Get your resolution here Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
4:28 pm	why was I never told!? Ok, so I'm a WWE fan, I always have been and I always will be... well I stopped watching a while ago because I couldn't and wasn't ever home... I find out today, that Eddie Guerrero is dead! Well wtf!? He dies Oct 13, 2005... heart failure, and no one tells me!? This makes me sad.... Man this is fucking gay.... he left behind his wife Viki and his 3 daughters who are 13, 9, and 3.... this breaks my heart.... Sure, he wasen't the best of people on the fucking WWE board, but he didn't deserve to go like that!! I'mg oing to go cry now... Current Mood: sad Current Music: here without you (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
10:54 pm	W00000H0000000000000 YAY FOR THE 22ND OF DECEMBER ^-^!!! Current Mood: excited Current Music: Happy Birthday to ME (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
12:20 pm	:) 7 days...... Current Mood: content Current Music: Life of a Salesman --- Yellowcard (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 10th, 2005
9:37 pm	Thank the gods! For ryan. How I truely feel. thank god it's finally over, I've said it over and over, this time it's final, fuck him and whatever world he thinks he lives in. Making his own alter-ego to escape the world he really lives in, and trying to say that his RP character is a part of him, that he is "the Dark Prophet." Poor pathetic man. Since you've been gone Well, I feel like I've been chewing on tinfoil Since you've been gone It's like I got a great big mouthful of cod liver oil Oh well, I'm feelin like I stuck my hand Inside a blender and turned it on You know, I've been in a buttload of pain Since you've been gone (Since you've been gone) I couldn't feel any worse if you dropped A two-ton bowling ball on my toes (Since you've been gone) It couldn't hurt any more if you shoved A red-hot cactus up my nose Since you've been gone Well, it feels like I'm getting tetanus shots every day Since you've been gone It's like I've got an ice cream headache that won't go away Ever since that day you left me I've been so miserable, my dear I feel almost as bad as I did When you were still here Amen!! Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
9:03 pm	Rock bottom.... So I've hit rock bottom once again... the kind of bottom where I don't want to get back up, the kind where I just want to be left to myself, yet have someone there to comfort me at the same time.... where I want to curl up into a little tiny ball, and cry... where I want someone to say it's alright, and make me actually think that everything will be as they say. But that won't ever happen... no one seems to care if I hit this place and never come back... the people that I care about I'm slowly starting to push away again... and the one person that I truely love, has pushed me away. I don't know what to do anymore.... and I don't know what to say... I've told him I love him... he doesn't believe me, and I'm figuring out that I don't expect him to. After everything we've done to eachother.... love is something that I don't think we're capable of to share with one another... not anymore..... maybe at a later time when things can "go back to normal" in a way... maybe then.... but as of right now.... I just don't know... I know things won't ever be "back to normal" between him and I... I can't take back everything I've said and nor can he.. I can't turn the clock back through time, and make his life right again... I can't give him anything that he doesn't want..... right now it seems he doesn't want anything from me... I've been trying to call Ryan for the last 3-4 days... my cell won't connect to his number fr some reason.... I don't get it... I've thought about using the house phone and calling out and asking him to try to call my cell phone to see if it's just me or if they blocked my number.... but I feel I'd be a burden to him... i don't know what to do anymore.... I just don't know..... Current Mood: crushed Current Music: NickelBack --- Far Away (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
2:16 pm	heh.... Dear journal; Lately I have read in a magazine that as the Holiday Season draws close, all could use a little Calm and Inner Peace. By following this simple advice, I have finally found inner peace. The way to inner peace is to finish all the things you've started. So, I looked around the house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished... And before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of red wine, a bottle of white wine, the Bailey's, Kahlua and Wild Turkey, the Prozac, some valium, some cheesecake and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freakin' good I feel!!! Auto response from SeasideSecrets66: Dumbledore dies on page 596. (I just saved you $30 and four hours.) Michallillend: Dear journal; Lately I have read in a magazine that as the Holiday Season draws close, all could use a little Calm and Inner Peace. By following this simple advice, I have finally found inner peace. The way to inner peace is to finish all the things you've started. So, I looked around the house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished... And before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of red wine, a bottle of white wine, the Bailey's, Kahlua and Wild Turkey, the Prozac, some valium, some cheesecake and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freakin' good I feel!!! (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
8:35 am	A letter to Santa ^-^ Ooh yeah Last night I took a walk in the snow Couples holding hands - places to go Seems like everyone but me is in love Santa, can you here me ? I sent my letter that I sealed with a kiss I send it off and just said this I know exactly what I want this year Santa, can you hear me ? I want my baby, baby I want someone to love me someone to hold Maybe, Maybe Be all my own in a big red bow Santa, can you hear me ? I have been so good this year And all I want is one thing Tell me my true love is here He's all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here Santa that's MY only wish this year. Christmas Eve - I just can't sleep Will I be wrong just taking a peek? Cause that I heard that your coming to town Santa, can you hear me ? I really hope your on your way With Something special for me in your sleigh Ooh please make my wish come true Santa, can you hear me ? I want my baby, baby I want someone to love me someone to hold Maybe, Maybe we'll be all alone under the mistle toe Santa, can you hear me ? I have been so good this year And all I want is one thing Tell me my true love is here He's all I want just for me- underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here Santa that's only wish this year I hope my letter reaches you in time woooo yeah Bring me a love that I can call all mine Cause I have been so good this year Can't be alone under the missal toe he's all I want in a big red bow Santa, can you hear me ? I have been so good this year And all I want is one thing Tell me my true love is here He's all I want, just for me Underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here Santa, that's my only wish this year Ooh Santa Can you hear me ? ooh Santa Well he's all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here.. Santa, that's my only wish this year Santa, that's my only wish this year (Comment on this)
Friday, November 25th, 2005
12:54 am	ok You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs. </td> Suicide 100% Stabbed 80% Disappear 67% Posion 60% Suffocated 60% Disease 53% Accident 53% Gunshot 40% Eaten 33% Cut Throat 20% Bomb 13% Natural Causes 7% Drowning 7% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com Your Suicide.. by Konstantine Your Name/Username Favorite Number? Favorite Color? Gender? FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth How will you commit suicide? You will stab a knife through your heart How many tries will it take? 22 When will you commit suicide? March 12, 2024 What will your suicide note say? Life is Love. Love is painful. Yet suicide is swift and sweet Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
12:43 am	for him... Silly of me to go around And brag about the love I found I say you're the best But I can't tell the rest And silly of me to tell them all That every night and day you call When you could care less You're just a lover out to score And I know that I should be looking for more What could it be in you I see What could it be?  Oh love, oh love, stop making a fool of me  (lyrics for the song below..) Have your nails scratch the deepest Have you broken skin this time Made your mark and took me deeper As you drown me with your eyes I held my hand over your mouth As you scream at me to feel You felt my scars with understanding But I can't promise anything Can you tell That I picked my poison well That I have no more to sell to you Is it really that important that I settle down Does it really even matter that I have my doubts I search for the one who bleeds I reach for the one who bleeds I forget to dream in color I am better off alone Honest hearts are undercover We are shadows on our own Lose ourselves in open waters Always swimming back to shore My addictions have no bounderies Now I'm crying out for more Can you tell that I picked my poison well That I have no more to sell to you Is it really that important that I settle down Does it really even matter that I have my doubts I search for the one who bleeds I reach for the one who bleeds Like me I have my doubts I have my doubts And so does everybody else So help me take this all away You gotta help me take this all away Please help me take this all away And bleed like me So help me take this all away You gotta help me take this all away Please help me take this all away And bleed like me Is it really that important that I settle down Does it really even matter that I have my doubts I search for the one who bleeds I reach for the one who bleeds I reach for I reach for I reach for I reach for I reach for the one who bleeds Like me! Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: TRAPT--- Bleed Like Me (Comment on this)